Essence of Life

She is a  pretty old woman of which her existence made her vulnerable. 😂 Life for her is not as easy go lucky like other, this maiden's journey had given her wisdom that brings her more great things in her life. She is not rich in material things but she is rich of joy, peace, love and kindness. This maiden believes that the essence of life is not what you have, who is with you and how famous you are. It is how you become contented of what you have, being thankful, be kind, forgive those who hurt you and ask also forgiveness to those you hurt. Be prayerful and give time to meditate. Always ask God for wisdom, trust and believe God for everything.  That's how a maiden's life enduring the great blessings GOD bestowed in her life.

Prayer: Dear Father in Heaven, thank you so much for everything, may you continue to filled my heart with joy, shield it by peace and love, crowning me by your mercy, grace and favor. In beloved name of Jesus. Amen.

Music Monday- Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

There is no perfect relationship if you are not meant with each other.  Loving someone is not enough, you need to to let it go and accept your fate.  Love is not a fairy tale that we seen in the movie, it is an irony to the journey we have.  The perfect love that can give to us is the love of our great father above.

I want to dedicate this song for someone that once in my life, he became part of my journey of love.  I have no regret of the love we shared before, and I truly cherished our memories. To the man that I love, if you happen to cross in my home page, don't forget to play this song.  This is for you, and I wan't to say thank you for a short time that we shared, you made me happy.

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Her existence..

Her existence …

To be a mother is a gift and a blessing.  My mother is one of a kind which God given to us. Reminisce my childhood, I still remember how our life suffering in hardship.  I saw my parent’s who works too hard for our daily needs and for our education.  I witnessed the hardship of my parent, especially my mom.  

My mom, is the oldest daughter of our late grandfather. According to her, at her younger age, they have a luxury life, but when our grandmother died, their life begun to change.  His father, remarry again,  unfortunately, her step-mom abused her which caused her to stopped her study and she decided to marry in her early stage.

She shared with us the challenges, trials, hardships and failures in every roads she'd been through. She become more stronger, a fighter and a survivor in her different battle in life.  

When she had her own family, she taught us  to know the good things and understand the dark  side of this world.  I remember how she TRUSTED us, when we are growing up.  She nurtured us by her unconditional love and affection, despite of her busiest time by providing our daily needs.

And when the time we got married, she continue to pray  for us,  I know sometimes in her life  she suffered when we are in trouble. Her loving heart reminds me how she protects and comfort her children.  Her hugged gives us peace and comfort.  Presently my mom,  choose to serves us by cooking and do some household chores despite of her old age.  

We are so much bless because now, we her children witnessing her life as she is enjoying serving God. I thank God for giving her the opportunity to experience her life by honoring God and serving His people.

To you mang, I honor you, thank you so much for trusting us, for all the sacrifices, for your love, for your prayerss and for your great time serving our God in heaven.  I love you mamang!! We love you you!

1 Timothy 5:4But if a widow has children or grandchildren, they must first learn to show godliness to their own family and repay their parents, for this is pleasing in the sight of God.

Dear God, thank you so much for the gift of life, you choose us to love .  Thank you for the great opportunity that you gave for our mother, after the tribulation of her life, at her 72 years on earth, you let her to enjoy your love, by giving her peace, joy, love and the wisdom to know you and bless her heart by giving her the passion to serve you and your people.  I pray dear Lord Jesus, to add her life, and  may  she enjoy the gift of the Holy Spirit.  I declare healing in any deceases she has, freedom and forgiveness in her heart.  Lord, I pray to crowning her by your tenderkindess love, mercy and favor. In Jesus name.  Amen.

I am Thankful

Have you tried to experience in your life that nobody understand you? No one who cares about your feelings? That you cant even say what inside your heart because you feel that you cant fight for it.

Yes, being ignore by someone you care is one reason that I felt sad.  But, instead I complain I make myself calm and talk with Him. Why I need to experience this from them? maybe because God has something great to give but I need patience to wait.

Being ignore, it not a reason to stop your life there. You need to continue your life and be marry of what the life brings you.  Because if you are serious in every details in your life...then everything will be complicated...mabuang gyud ka..hahahaha....

Thank you my God for comforting my heart. Thank you for covering my heart a reason why I can't feel that I was hurt. Thank you Lord for your presence because you hold my hand and say:

Isaiah 41:10  'Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'

Temptation in my Life

The desire of every human is made up much of complication. The reason why every individual seize the menace and recognize the outcome that conceded the wrong pathway, is our lowly wrong choices. 

Our choices sometimes suffered us because of every design of temptation around the world, the serious decision that hard to defy because we value our own desire. Because of our disobedient we ended to the pinnacle judgment as we crave to something to make us satisfy and happy. It is hard to understand that sometimes we as a human take the wrong path and mistakenly made things to carry the said burden in our life.

Dealing the life in this earth is not easy to resist. Any decision that we could done depended for the situation that could bring to us by our tomorrow. Occasionally, we are facing the unpredicted trial that bring us to our failures and pains. These lead us to disappear from good to bad creature.

In this situation God tested our free will, faith and fidelity. 1Peter1:7: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it betried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.

Human beings are not perfect in dealing this kind of condition. Temptation rather is also needed. For us to open our mind and understand what is behind it during we encountered ourselves to be tempted. This is how I understand the word temptation when I was facing the difficulties to recover from anxieties and accepted the temptation in my life. What I know before was,  I need it this moment and expecting that grabbing this enticement will makes me better and renew everything and no more sorrows to experience. But it was not too easy, because when I was in this kind of situation the dilemma begun in my heart.

Being a separated woman, I thought getting a relationship to other man is one way to defy my agony and pains that I possessed. But it made me trigger and decided to escape from the situation which add my emptiness. This emptiness became the burden of my daily life and again I found out myself to felt in love to another man which I know it was wrong. I can’t resist myself to love that someone and I gave myself a chance to took the temptation in my life. But still I am falling and back again in the same dilemma.

Life changed everyday; this is the cycle of our life, passing, dropping and leaving. But from these cycles we got some lessons that made us understand what life all about.

Realizing this kind of situation made me different. Especially my personality and the way I handled my life. Those temptation that I grabbed once became the path to become closed to Him who dear me to become a good one. He headed me to a path which He knows where I belong. He dearly said unto my heart that making a decision in our life is a toughed one unless you ask Him to help you. Base in my experienced and every angle of circumstances in my daily life the good relationship with God was established.

Now, I enjoyed the life He promised. This only once in my life and if ever temptation come again, I know He is there to help me and resist the temptation because He cares for me.  Yet, I am not perfect and never be perfect..I know loving someone is one that I cant resist..God knows, so help me God.

Welcome back.

This maiden became invisible for almost two months. She had a lot of reason why she didn't updated her home page. She missed to get in touch again with herself through her testimonies. She missed her virtual friends, too.

A lot of things to reveal in a maiden's life, but she need to keep it in her heart. She wants to share the new journey of her life and more lessons from the day that you never heard about her.

To start in her journey, this maiden welcome herself again for a new beginning of her new chosen life. Her new struggle but very challenging part of her new phase of life.

Anyways, she wants to share this beautiful song "This I Promise You" by Ronan Keating as the welcome song for her. Actually, she is still in love, that's why she wants to enjoy every meaning of the lyrics of this song and she wants to dedicate this beautiful song to her very special someone who still there who loves her.

Nostalgia # 10: Where is your Home?

Where is your home? Some of us are fortunate to have called home. Some are blessed because they have a family who loved them and provided everything they need. Some are borne rich and all the luxuries are there.

But some are not. These children are unfortunate to have home. We called them an orphaned. This is a place of children who became the victim of irresponsible parents. Who was to blame? The children who never know everything about future? Or those parents who have a hardened heart that ignore their kids. How many parents, woman, lady and young parents who have misfortune and subjectively repeated.

Every one of us has a responsibility of our own life. If we grown up and become matured we had already know what is wrong and good for us and for our love ones. We have emotions that have a big part in every decision we have. We have a heart that feels every emotion we have every time we decide. We have brains that help us to fix on. Are you agreeing? Whatever, that are the way that I express my feelings about these things.

Luckily, I survived in my case when some unexpected event in my life happened. God helped me through. I love my daughter and she is my life and inspiration, I took her with all my care, love and affection. I am poor but I strives to give her a good life. To let her experience how happy to have a life despite the odds we’ve experience. We have no perfect life, but through a good heart we have, we can handle a beautiful, peaceful and joyful life we want to be. Life is beautiful if we know how to appreciate it.

Anyways, pictures below are some of our school activities when I was schooling. My groups choose to visit orphaned kids and we made some contributions to feeds them and invited a pastor to helped us entertained the kids.

We played with them and talked with them. After, some activities, we contributed some give away, such as: clothes, milk, soap, notebook, pencil, crayons and etc. Heartily, we are so much touched and cried because of their situation. But, I can still say that these orphaned kids are still lucky to have place to comfort them. Thanks for the staffs of Gemma’s Orphanage who gave us an opportunity to visit this kids who also touched our life.

The kids have freedom to be happy. In this picture, we let them to sing with us.

dance with us.

They love to listen our stories.

They love the foods we prepared.

They are happy to play with us.

And the whole group, are happy too, because our moments with the kids are the big part that we shared with them. We are too lucky because of this kids they touched our heart and they gave us more understanding about their life.

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Nostalgia#7:River Tubing at Maitum, Sarangani Province

Have you tried to fight your life in this wild running water? What would you do if you drown in this strong untamed water then the big rock waited you to hurt?

I still pursued to play my life in the said water and deadly big rocks. I said to myself, I am brave and I know I can survived.

When my group are ready for the adventure I hurriedly wore the helmet and the life jacket for protection in case we were be lost.

In this picture I am uneasy and I need to fake my smile on the camera.

After 5 second briefing, we prepared ourselves for the adventure.

Ok, here we are, enjoying the the wild water and deadly rocks facing on us everytime we were trapped in the whirlpool water. I experienced to sink once and thanks to my rescuer, I was not hurt too much.

Some of my group drowned in the water and been hurt from the big rocks they encountered.

Group pic before the adventure

Indeed, we had successful adventure and we had enjoy the water though it was dangerous. Seeing the strong water after the adventure I had realized that I've been put my life in danger. I promised myself that I will not to play my life again in this kind of activity, one is enough at least I had try one.wheeeewwwww!!!

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A Maiden's Journey..

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived. But it is our path to become more aware in every struggle of our life. It is how we driven our life not by chances but through our choices. My destiny is not your destiny, but I believe that we have the same experiences but different circumtances.

I have scuffled many nights as days for my life, i became a prisoner from my fear, which delivered me in a pathetic situation. A fear that I suffered for a long time from the hand of an unrighteous one. Sufferings, pains, failures, troubles and mornings in his hand, but through this event, the way of my life changed in the year's course, and this is the new beginning of my life.

I became more aware of my life, my task is to love myself before anything else, promise myself not to suffer a burden because of somebody else, to exhibit self meditation for me to know how close I am with myself. But since, I am in the middle of my voyage, I needed strength from the strong wind that I had faced in the middle of the blue dark water of the roaring ocean waves and I need to train myself in every drastic storm which will try to engulf my unbeatable life.

This unexpected events are adversities which could no longer be notice. Where we have to go...a decision that we need to make... and think what is desirable, but, before we decide, we need to listen to our heart, mind, body and soul. It should be necessary to coordinate with them to be more effective and efficient in all aspects of our life.


Now, I found out that a happy life wouldn't be complete without a littles spies of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it weren't balanced with sadness. Happiness can neither be seen nor felt only in luxurious , popularity and power but by being typical.

Above all, God is very important and in control of things spiritually, mentally and physically in short (SMP). Wherein, love is very important.. that love is the fulfilling law of God..and all of this is part of my Voyage.

Reflection of Our Sin

The existence of a human being is a wonderful gift by the Creator, we called it LIFE. Life that enables us to determine in this world how we live naturally in our FAITH for His great creation, HE offered to us. Genesis 1:27-28 “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

God designed us as an extremely significant creation from His own image and likeness. He gives us the power over those creatures he had molded on this globe. But, the essence of God’s creation acquired Him a total disappointment because of the restlessness of every being and that means us. These caused the barrier of the relation between Man and God to wither. The cause why every generation would not be satisfied enough of what they have, though they often boast about it, because of PRIDE and DISCONTENT.

Genesis 3:4-5 “And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die: For God doth know that in the day ye earth thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil.” The sins that made us to depart from this wonderful Garden of Love. Genesis 3:23-25 “ Therefore the Lord God sent him forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground form which he was taken. So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.

Now, we propel the life after doing each desirable matter which caused us to depart from the love of God. And lead ourselves in our own dingy way of unrighteousness and conviction. The path which opens the door of insignificant choices. The choice which made Him shed a thousand tears like the pouring drops of rain of which every human being ought to not feel. His heartaches from His cavernous heart is of the least significant to us. The ocean flows of his teardrops when He feels the pain because of our obdurateness, until His wrath equipped us through the roaring thunderstorm and the heavy lightning from the mourning sky which carves death.

Look at our frenzied world! The reality which enables us to depart from His love. The love that we can't enjoy because of these hindrance which is produced by our sins. This some times makes it difficult for us to be a PERFECT HUMAN. Since, we were sinners; Romans 2:12, 3:10 "For as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law; and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law'; As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one."
How depressing that our beloved Creator gained only nothing from his CREATION. Why are we, being special to Him, busted His great plans for us? We continue to bruise His heart which carved a mark in it- that matter mostly reflects the agony made by us.

This is one of my entry that I wrote when I and my Christian friend decided to make a christian blog. I want to share with you my dear sister and brother how God work in my heart during I wrote this Reflection of Sin. Thank you so much for reading. Have a blessed Sunday to all!! This is a Maiden's Testimony.

Realization

Sometimes in life, we need to accept of what things comes in reality. This reality is one of the reason why our existence change. Wherein, changes give a big part in our life, because this is the reason of everything that we wanted too or we don't want to do. Changes bring choices.

Yes, choices is one of the reason why my life changed. Choices suffered me a lot, since this involved my whole existence, my family and my future.

My choices stands for the truth, I had learned to accept of what fated for me. I realized that waiting is not the hindrance for what I wish for, the importance of it is, you have faith, hope and love. It involves also sacrifice.

I realized now that the Voyage of my journey begins from my past. And this is a reason why my life changed and enjoyed the blessings that I have now.
Above all, God made me realized the importance of my life..TO ENJOY IT!!. And I am thankful because I know how to appreciate and value it; to be contented and take care of it.

I have only one life and I need to enjoy it.

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Pipe Dream...Lollii's Piece

A crowd of famous people cheering, proud and a happy family, sweet and cuddly siblings and a peaceful life of luxury and freedom. A pipe dream of my unprogresable life, a goal that cannot be attained by just a simple individual like me, a bubble which vanished every second, a life that have never was.

I was a prisoner of my own mistakes, suffering from the circumstances life had given to me; I'm craving for love, dignity and freedom, i wanted to be free... free from the shackles surrounding my dirty shaking hands. I once dreamed of a life of pure peace, a life far from the claws of imprisonment, far from the eyes of watchful humans trying to tear up my veins...

A life that can satisfy my hungry wretched soul. For some time, I felt comfort...comfort from teh dark ghostly room of the tower. Then I went back to my dream.. my pipe dream my parents.

I remembered having several kids and I the oldest and the matured one was there taking care of them, while giving my family honor. It calmed my soul.... It calmed my whole body down. I had all the riches on earth even the happiest life a man can ever possess...but that was just a time, once-upon a life story.

I was the opposite of that life, of that person... I have parents whom despised having me as their child, siblings whom tear my weak heart to pieces until it drowned itself in pure blood, a dumb brain and a low ethic individual who even brought neither honor nor happiness to the family. I was an outcast...until now in the time of my death.

I was scared when I heard the creaking of the rusty door, the light that entered hit my eye, two cape man went in and took my weak body out of the cold room. I opened my eyes and saw a bunch of people gatehred around the place. I saw them.. I saw my parents .. I saw my family...

They were crying.. i know they're crying for me... I though I'm the loneliest one in here but I'm not.. I'm not...

As one of the cape man covered my face with a cloth and as he placed the rope on my nape. I came to realize they love me despite of being too juvenile still they cared for me. As the guy swing his a silver on my neck, I lost my life. I felt my soul floating in the breezy air, I glanced at my lifeless body and grinned, a smile of dream satisfaction and happiness...it wasn't a thinking...it wasn't a pipe dream at all..life less body..l need to mingle with death.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINDY!!!

Today is Windy's Birthday!! A man who is banned in Lainy's Musings site.

I'm sorry Windy, maybe you are banned because you forgot that this April 15 is your BIRTHDAY!!!

Wow, additional number in your age again. Don't worry, as lolii said, "you are getting younger."

to say

WINDY!!!

Wish you more birthday to come and a healthy life!! God bless you always!!

This is A Maiden's Testimony.

The Awaited Time- Part I

Time flies too fast, we can't hold it back, but rather we need to face it and accept it. We need to enjoy for the opportunities given to us by GOD,the greatest gift, LIFE. Our existence in this frenzied world is not a game that we waste but a life that we need to drive in the path with His guidance.

Driving our life is not easy to handle. It is so hard to start if you don't know what kind of life we want. It is hard to choose a path if we wish more than for our life. It is hard to step forward, if we don't know where we going through, it is hard to walk in the left side if we are not sure of what things waiting for us there. It is hard to go the right side, if we have a lot of worries in our mind. But it is hard for us to stay in one place that we know someday it make us suffer.

I have a lot of ups and down in life, I admitted that once in my life, I lost my strength, my dreams and my goals. But, I thank God for having there to guide me the right path that brings me where I am now.

Maybe one of His reason why I need to be strong because of this innocent little angel of mine. I am much responsible to took good care of this little angel. She needs me to let her feel my love and affections.

“The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.” Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

How can I protect her if she scared alone? She needs me around for her safety.
She needs someone while she is still learning to explore in this world.
In her journey, she needs someone to discover something that she don't understand.

Though, she suffered the uncertainty in life, she is still there ready to step upward to show the world that she is ready to face the world.
In her smile she reminds me that she is very much special. And she needs me to cover her with my love.
She gave me recognition of those time that I share with her.

The life shows us more complicated but we still there together for better or for worse.

What we remember from childhood we remember forever - permanent ghosts, stamped, inked, imprinted, eternally seen. ~Cynthia Ozick

That I appreciated too much because whatever circumstances that we had, I never heard any regret from her.

There is no perfect life.

Believe it or not, she survived from anxiety from situation she is facing everyday in her life.

Life that we never give up, because we become more stronger.

The number of time is not changing, but everything change her gradually, she learned much of her self.

I appreciate this kind of recognition she shared for me.

She is my precious one that helps me to perform my responsibility as her mom and dad.

A best friend she need most in her side.

Now, she knows more about life. She knows how to appreciate around her.

AT this time, she is ready to accept responsibility.

I know, because she learn more from her childhood and junior life. Now, she starting of her journey to fulfill her awaited goals in life. I pray that God will guide her way and teach her to learn from whatever mistake she takes, to accept from the failures she experience. And may God helps her to become more mature spiritually.

This is the most awaited time that I ever had to my daughter Lolli-pii. As a mother, I only wish and pray for her great future.

“The future destiny of a child is always the work of the mother.”

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