Missing Someone Special

It is not easy that you are far from someone you love.

I have no choice but to accept the reality that I cannot be with him in my entire life. 

I have only one wish, that someday, I gonna stay with him for long just to let him experience the sincerity of my love. I only want to share my days with him, to enjoy the love inside of my heart and to experience again the security of his love every time I am in his side.

My dear I hope everything is ok around you. I always say that I love you more everyday and miss you so much. This song is for you my dear.

Blowing His 4th Candle. "Happy Birthday John Rey!!"!!

Every time there was an occasion, like birthday, I always say, TIME RUNS TO FAST. Sometimes, I was surprised every moment that I looked my son. He is only 2 months old when I accepted my responsibility as his real mom and dad, like my own daughter who is going to 18 years this year.

But, I am talking here my son's 4th year birthday which is celebrating today August 8, 2011. I did not prepare any foods for his birthday, since my financial status this moment is not stable. I lost my job one month ago, so I have no salary to received. I was sick for almost one month and I am still spending too much money for the new small business that I started. Meaning, I have no plan to make a children party for him. "Poor Star" tsk.. tsk...

But, I did not stop praying from my God. Though I am busy, my heart keep asking God to provide anything for my son's birthday. Not only in that matter, the more important for me that He will grow up as a good person. My wishes for him is to have a good life, good health, he will grow up as a good Christian and to have fear with God.

Well, it was a busy day for me, I need to do all stuff to finished before leaving the office. I was tasked to met someone for very important matters at 4 in the afternoon somewhere on the mall. I did not expect that this person is one of the instrument from our Heavenly Father, because He knows that I have no penny to buy for my son's birthday cake, as I promised.

God made a way to meet this person because He knows that this person has a good heart in giving. When we met, I told her that I cant stay too long because I need to buy something for my son's birthday. But, she said, stay with me for an hour, just wait for me, I will be the one to buy the cake for your son. At first, I felt shy, but since she offered it, I accepted it, because this is blessings. Aside for her generosity, she bought some fruits and 25 sticks of barbeque and she gave me some cash. God is great!! He provides everything for my son. I am thankful for His greatness.

Upon reaching my mom's home, they just finished eating for dinner. My son said though he has no cake he still happy to have us, as his true family who love him. It's so touching when he talks to me and to my mom. He gives me a hug and kiss saying thank you. Because He knows how we loved and cared him.

Then after he kissed me, I let him to blow his cake and let him to eat his cake and some foods that I bring.

We are also surprised when my sister from Digos came just to be with us on his birthday. It's a family reunion anyway, though they only stayed for 3 hours we are happy and we enjoy talking and letting Johrey a.ka. Ken-ken to share his song and let him to read some of his lessons.

At last, we are all happy leaving from my mom's home. My sister and her common-law husband dropped me first in my new home before they leave for 3 hours travel back in their home town at Digos City.

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Opportunity comes in A Maiden's way.

Business is one of my main goal that I want to obtain. I want to handle all those things in a good manner that I have no one to hurt. I plan not only for myself, I plan for a brighter future of my daughter and son. I am also preparing something for myself that if I am in my old age, I have savings for any personal and medical expenses.

Achieving my goals is my greatest accomplishment in life . I always say that, I am blessed because of the bundle of opportunities coming in my way. God is good all the time. He designed my life perfectly because He lets the opportunity to come in my way. I thought, my life will end up to nothing. But, God save something the best for me.

I need to fixed everything and I need to think more idea how to handle this because at this time, I was adjusting of my new environment and new routine of my daily life.

I hope everything will be fine and may God will bless me more. Ended, I want to thank my family, my friends, my loving dear and my boss and to those who let me down, thank you so much because of you, I still here standing and become more stronger.

Above all, I thank God for being there with me all the time.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."

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Welcome back.

This maiden became invisible for almost two months. She had a lot of reason why she didn't updated her home page. She missed to get in touch again with herself through her testimonies. She missed her virtual friends, too.

A lot of things to reveal in a maiden's life, but she need to keep it in her heart. She wants to share the new journey of her life and more lessons from the day that you never heard about her.

To start in her journey, this maiden welcome herself again for a new beginning of her new chosen life. Her new struggle but very challenging part of her new phase of life.

Anyways, she wants to share this beautiful song "This I Promise You" by Ronan Keating as the welcome song for her. Actually, she is still in love, that's why she wants to enjoy every meaning of the lyrics of this song and she wants to dedicate this beautiful song to her very special someone who still there who loves her.

This trouble me so much!!

I lost my hope to write and even to pursue myself to meet my dreams because of the trials comes on my way. After our travel to KL and SG I've been facing a hurtful decision that I never expected.

The secret escapade to KL and SG was a reason why the unfavorable decision of the head office became the contradict to all my plans. But, I did not mean that this would be a big falls for me, instead I accepted the challenge although it made me hurt. It was a hurtful but I still accepted it because I believed that God plans the best for me.

The only thing that made me felt down, when I saw my daughter and my mom who get hurt and they'd been hurt for me.  They heard some humors that they believed I was not deserved. Thought, it was unfair in my part. I  still stood and continued to fight my desire to recover from pain and trouble.

I think I have no time to cry. I need space but I can't do it until now. I am looking for my emotion so that I can release my feeling in other way.  But I observed that I earned hatred in my heart. I really hate what I felt now, I really hate to say that I am starting to hate and disrespect the person, who was the caused of  my downfall.  I thought, I need to stopped my work in that place, but I have no choice. I need to stay in order to survived.I still do my part in my work though the payback to me is less penny that I received than before I handled two jobs. 



I always said, the world is so unfair... my heart telling me, stopped, don't be hurt, instead forget and forgive.  Because this test should help you to find another way, everything would be ok.  How can I be ok? if i stayed and saw those people who make my life suffered.  Sometimes, I felt sorry of myself because the respect that I gave to him turned to hate and disrespect..but I still led myself to fight it. Because I don't want to dishonor this person, because he is one of the instrument of God, being one of the blessing that I had.  So, I decided to continue to be part in that place.  I ate my pride.  I forget my ego. What I did is I pray, I look for another source of income that would help my daughter's and son's need.  So be it...I've been very very closed with God.  This circumstances happened to me is a test of acceptance and God promises.

As He promise that He is there beside me. I will ended up in His word...

1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.

Psalm 31:24 Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

Psalms 16:8-9 NKJV I have set the LORD always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. {9} Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; My flesh also will rest in hope.

Psalms 31:24 NKJV Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the LORD.

I have my God who are there who protected me all the time. God is my strength, He is my hope and I am not afraid to face the world because God always in my side.