..with the temptation

My journey help me to stand as a strong woman.  I realized that my life was tested  by different phase of a giant of circumstances. 

Fourteen years of my separation, I tried to figure out the impact of those challenging part  in my early marriage I consider my marriage as a great revelation of who and what I am today,   I actually consider my marriage as a winning piece in my journey in the sense that God taught me  to trust everything in Him despite of failures and struggles of my relationship with my love ones.

I may not know why it happen to me that before, but God had given me the wisdom, to understand why it  happened.  I had the opportunity to understand that life is always be a battle. Failure is one of the battle that I experienced, I FAILED in my marriage life which I question God and seek His answer before. It is not sin to question God, but it is a way to ask God it purpose why I should need to experienced it.  

Years passing by and new years come, I slowly understand that our God is great!  I actually appreciate Him, because of His tenderheartedness, His truly a loving and merciful father.   I experience His presence. His love and care in the midst of my battle and I realized that  He won my battle. 

Temptation, No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

I am human, I need someone to be with, just to shared my losing piece, I mean, to share my  failure that caused me so much pain. And then, someone came along the road, to make it short, I have been tempted and made sin against God.  When I had made my decision to had a relationship with other man after my separation with my husband, I remembered my first tears, the most painful and sinful tears I had done in my life, the result of  repeated mistakes I've done. It is actually one way of showing that I felt too tired in my life.  But God never gave up on me.  He tried to reached me, He open my eyes with the truth, that He loves me so much. God enlightened my mind and my heart,  God wants me to know that He always care of me.  

I believe and I always been praying that God shall shield my heart with His tender kindness love and comfort me with His faithful promise..that soon,the person that I prayed for and love for is not a temptation but His promised that I patiently wait.

My prayer.. 

Dear God, thank you so much for guiding my life, for never gave up on me.  Thank you for your great love as you make me complete everyday.  Thank you for your faithful promised that I hold on.  In Jesus name.  Amen.